SOLILOQUY

"Hey me, what's up?"
"Nothing interesting, at least for today".
"C'mon, I am you, and this conversation happens in your head".
"Well, if im allowed to say, im tired of all these shits".
"Yeah, I understand"
"But you did nothing".
"Nothing is something".
"Enough shitty head".
"Well, me, often you have to surrender to this force".
"Why don't you encounter, fight back? ".
"Now this matter is different, a whirlpool, strange tide
The more you resist, the more you deny, the more you will suffer".
"Im already suffocated".
"No you didn't, you still can talk to me".
"You're not funny, me".
"But you laughed".
"Fine, so after I surrender myself, will you say I'll be happy?".
"No, definitely not".
"Then why the hell you told me to surrender?".
"Because I dont wanna you to suffer".
"Are those different? ".
"Absolutely".
"Tell me!".
"I can guide you how not to suffer, but to be happy, it's all your choice".
"Choice of what?".
"How you respond, how you act, and how you believe".
"Nah, it's just your words tricks ".
"You may say that, but remember, words are powerful enough to change your fate".
"How?".
Your prayers, Dua's, aren't those words too?".
"Okay, go on".
"Now do you remember all books you read, comics, animes, movies you've watched? ".
"Mostly, yes".
"Why were the main characters in those tales triumphed, mostly?".
"Because they're powerfull?".
"Nope, well some of them have superpowers, but others are even ordinary yet miserable".
"So what's the points".
"Because they never give up, for something they believe in".
"Damn, you told me to surrender but now indirectly tell me to not give up".
"Retard, both are different".
"Eh?".
"Surrender doesn't mean giving up, it means to accept, to embrace ".
"Okay, so it's like the concept of the dark night?".
"Yea, but it's on higher level".
"Then let's just call it the darker night".
"Hahahaha, now it's you the funny one".
"Okay, now tell me what should I do?".
"You have to embrace the reality, whether it's truth or lie, then make choice".
"Choice, is it possible to make options?".
"No, don't, if you go on two or more paths, you'll end up going on nothing".
"Well, it's hard".
"I tell you this shit, because I know you're able".
"Meh, you believed in me?".
"Stupid, I am you, who else should I believe in?".

Islamabad,
Ridwan Miftahurrochman